CD1

Well... IUI #1 was officially a bust. I knew it would be; my doctor knew it would be - but I still wanted to hold onto some hope.

Wine will be flowing tonight, oh yes, wine will be flowing.

The "Poor Me's"

Yeah, I have a case of them.

I was in horrible pain Monday night and went to the ER. I have a 3cm hemorrhagic cyst on my right ovary, two 3.5cm hemorrhagic cysts on my left ovary and my left ovary is over 8cm in size. (2.5-5 is "average")

OH and the icing on the cake... my lining is even thinner than it was at my midcycle scan, so even if the IUI was successful, implantation would be almost impossible.

I think I've cried once during the 19 months since we started trying to get pregnant... it was wine induced,  sloppy and months ago. But I feel a meltdown coming. SCREW YOU, INFERTILITY! I'm angry, I'm sad and I'm scared that it just won't happen for us. I get these horribly painful hemorrhagic cysts whether I'm on medicated cycles or not. I will be seeing an RE with a lot of experience with cysts once my period shows up.

I'm just feeling broken today. Physically and emotionally. I try to be so positive and so happy... I mean, look at E! Look at what she goes through on a daily basis - look at the fact that SHE IS HERE! What right do I have to sad? Well, today, I am.

Moves Like Jagger...

Went and saw Maroon 5 (Owl City and Neon Trees, too) with some of my favorites last night! We weren't close at all... But it was still amazing. Love me some Adam Levine.

IUI, done.

 It was more painful and took longer than expected but it went really well! This is going to be a looong 2WW. I will probably cheat and test on 2/25 if my trigger has tested out by then (11dpiui) since it's my birthday :)

Mr. M had some beautiful flowers delivered to me for Valentines day and bought me a bottle of my favorite perfume! (Coco Mademoiselle) We did some shopping after the IUI (spoiled each other a little more) and had a nice sushi lunch... Hopefully I won't be able to enjoy raw fish for 9 months ;) It was an absolutely amazing day!

 

Yum!

Cupcakes make everything better... even shots.

A HUGE thank you to Mrs. L for the tasty treats! Love you, lady!

Survey Says...

A Valentines Day IUI!

My lining was good, but we will switch to Femara if this cycle  doesn't work. I had 2 dominant follies on my left side (21mm and 18mm) which is my side with the good tube! I will be triggering tonight... And having the IUI Thursday!

Bring it on!

Woah!

Shit just got real! My ovidrel and Sharps container came today. FX for a big and beautiful follie (or 2) next week!

I sent Mr. M the picture I'm posting below and he responded with, "I love you and I'm so happy we are so close to having a real shot at this!" Aww, I think I will keep him.

Sorry this picture is huge, I will fix it when I'm not on the mobile app. (ignore the messy table. I was a crazy woman opening the box. Bubble wrap was flying!)

*Ultrasound Update*

CYST FREE! Starting clomid on Sunday. Wooo!

On an unrelated note... Mr M and I just booked our trip to Cancun - without E. I'm having major anxiety, but between my mom and E's amazing nurse, she will be in great hands! March 25th-29th... I'm really hoping that I will have an amazing reason not to drink, but if it doesn't work out that way... hello ALL inclusive!

<== Our resort! The Omni Resort and Villas

Oh hey there!

CD1... let's get this show on the road, bitches!

Ultrasound today to check for cysts... saying some extra prayers.