Yeah, I have a case of them.
I was in horrible pain Monday night and went to the ER. I have a 3cm hemorrhagic cyst on my right ovary, two 3.5cm hemorrhagic cysts on my left ovary and my left ovary is over 8cm in size. (2.5-5 is "average")
OH and the icing on the cake... my lining is even thinner than it was at my midcycle scan, so even if the IUI was successful, implantation would be almost impossible.
I think I've cried once during the 19 months since we started trying to get pregnant... it was wine induced, sloppy and months ago. But I feel a meltdown coming. SCREW YOU, INFERTILITY! I'm angry, I'm sad and I'm scared that it just won't happen for us. I get these horribly painful hemorrhagic cysts whether I'm on medicated cycles or not. I will be seeing an RE with a lot of experience with cysts once my period shows up.
I'm just feeling broken today. Physically and emotionally. I try to be so positive and so happy... I mean, look at E! Look at what she goes through on a daily basis - look at the fact that SHE IS HERE! What right do I have to sad? Well, today, I am.
I am sorry :-( You always impress me with your positivity but you have a right to get sad too! I'm glad you'll be seeing an RE with cyst experience. GL!
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! You are such a strong woman and your fight is second to none. This will not defeat your or define you. You will have your baby. I know it! ((BIG SQUISHY BOOB HUGS)) <3 you!
ReplyDeleteso sorry for what you're going through!
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